"I'm crushing on you!"

you know when you like someone when you mock a TV character flailing over the hot protagonist but accidently say another name instead.
oh deary deary me zoe!

I don't know what to do >__

Ideals

Are a beautiful thing.
My head lives in the clouds.
I want a beautiful future, to meet beautiful people and to be so very happy.
I want a fairytale.
And though I know it is unlikely to happen.
I still wish and dream.

On another note. Yesterday I went to the John Curtin PML annual lecture.
It was pretty awesome and being the crazy girls we are we got photos with Stephen Smith and Paul Keating 8)...well i think that's pretty exciting!Mind you I felt silly because I had nothing usefull to say.

Thank goodness

For ze holidays 8D
I've just put my report away and i started comparing it to my one from last year and boy have I gotten worse D:
My exam results are fairling poor compared to last year *cries*. Oh welllllll
Life isn't all about studying ...is it?

Anywhoo I had the worst week :D
I've learnt that telephone is a terrible form of communication and learnt that life really isn't fair. I hope this week as opened my eyes as to life in the real world and especially the office working place. Working politics is funny to watch at school, but when you get the short end of the stick it really is no fun!

All I can do is try my best at everything isnt it? And hope that I succeed. Mind you I'll be extremely sad if I dont get to go. I've been saving up since year 10! No lunch buying in year 12, no shopping splurges, ballonabudget
hmmmhmhmmm

bye bye!
Chai Latte!

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Is it bad that the only thing I'm looking forward to, relying on is that one hope?
If I don't get it that my life may be meaningless.
It's scary that i've but all my expectations, feelings and emotions on the hope that those two weeks arrive. Because that could very well not happen. Theres are a high chance.

Hope..

fully i will be able to let go of the past.
Life is tiring.
It's taken day by day with moments of hope for the future.
All I do is study and I don't enjoy it but it's not as through I have anything better to do. sad isn't it? whenever I do get invited to sometime well usually I actually have to do work.
I only just realised this today when someone asked whether I get any relax time.
I take what I can get.
~
You know what? I actually hated it.What everyone loved? And it's nobody's fault but mine. Why am I this way? I wish I wasn't but I am. Acceping who you are is not easy. What am I on about? I know, but do you? Perhaps you do, but I won't spell it out because it'll be politically wrong for me to do so. Have a guess it's not that hard. If you get it right I'll buy you ice-cream-everyone loves ice cream!

oyasuminasai if you read this.

PHEW

thanky goodness the exam results are back and I've never felt so stuppid in my life- cuz i did okay..

ohnomnom but the teachers are getting straight into work now.
how lame my life totally revolves around studies now. D:
*regrets doing 6 tee*

well anyway i hope that i get to go to japan at the end of the year as a gift to myself for all the studying hhohohoho, however i just have to convince mum that if the schloarships fail she'll let me go to the summer language coarse. She feels as though that because its not a highschool exchange its a waste of my time and i should wait till im older...but if i wait until im older, im going wait later..the later and probabaly never get around to it because i'll be too busy studying or applying for a job or watever which sucks donkey balls D:

yum i also want to go to London too; how cool would it be to go volunteer in the London olympics *D*
damn its second year uni D: and i really do want to finish my law degree if i do it quickly because it's a mimum of 5 years- full time
FIVE YEARS!!! thats alot- a whole nother highschool imagine that!

The future is so exciting <3 gah! cannot wait!