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Is it bad that the only thing I'm looking forward to, relying on is that one hope?
If I don't get it that my life may be meaningless.
It's scary that i've but all my expectations, feelings and emotions on the hope that those two weeks arrive. Because that could very well not happen. Theres are a high chance.

Hope..

fully i will be able to let go of the past.
Life is tiring.
It's taken day by day with moments of hope for the future.
All I do is study and I don't enjoy it but it's not as through I have anything better to do. sad isn't it? whenever I do get invited to sometime well usually I actually have to do work.
I only just realised this today when someone asked whether I get any relax time.
I take what I can get.
~
You know what? I actually hated it.What everyone loved? And it's nobody's fault but mine. Why am I this way? I wish I wasn't but I am. Acceping who you are is not easy. What am I on about? I know, but do you? Perhaps you do, but I won't spell it out because it'll be politically wrong for me to do so. Have a guess it's not that hard. If you get it right I'll buy you ice-cream-everyone loves ice cream!

oyasuminasai if you read this.

PHEW

thanky goodness the exam results are back and I've never felt so stuppid in my life- cuz i did okay..

ohnomnom but the teachers are getting straight into work now.
how lame my life totally revolves around studies now. D:
*regrets doing 6 tee*

well anyway i hope that i get to go to japan at the end of the year as a gift to myself for all the studying hhohohoho, however i just have to convince mum that if the schloarships fail she'll let me go to the summer language coarse. She feels as though that because its not a highschool exchange its a waste of my time and i should wait till im older...but if i wait until im older, im going wait later..the later and probabaly never get around to it because i'll be too busy studying or applying for a job or watever which sucks donkey balls D:

yum i also want to go to London too; how cool would it be to go volunteer in the London olympics *D*
damn its second year uni D: and i really do want to finish my law degree if i do it quickly because it's a mimum of 5 years- full time
FIVE YEARS!!! thats alot- a whole nother highschool imagine that!

The future is so exciting <3 gah! cannot wait!

IT'S OVER!

Hurrah!
thank goodness the exams are over but now i worry over my results.
i have so much trouble letting go and getting over things its irritating. perhaps its the fact that i know i can do so much better. especially in specialist! halfway in the exams i decide to commit in self sabotagery to let my brain sleep. scary~ and so so many stupid mistakes.

ugh KEVIN RUDD YOU BETTER WIN THE NEXT ELECTION!
abbott oh god (hah!) please not.
okay so rudd has been dissapointing and kinda failed to deliver? but do we really want a PM who is so contradictory of his conservatism? and one who admits to lying?
oh my oh my!

better sleep now
to ikea tomorrow !! :3

i leave you with my favourite tegoshi..and masu in the backgroup ;)

Examms

Exams give me headaches
especially afternoon ones
how very unlovely D:

f**** up politics and law pretty nicely
but im not depressed for some reasons
i think maybe it'll hit me later

onomnomnom